How long has it been since we’ve been together? How long has it been since we last spoke? I feel like it’s been ages. I feel like…you haven’t changed a bit. Do you remember why we stopped talking? I think we had an argument. Ah, yes, politics, you’re right. We never could agree on that, could we? Let me share my thoughts with you. It’s strange though, so many friends, so many family members, so many acquaintances. I haven’t forgotten any of them. The problem, I feel, is that many of those people have forgotten me. They moved on, got older, new experiences and chapters in their lives. No space for me anymore, right?

NOMORESPACE.

It makes me…sad, in a sense, to be forgotten. I don’t want that to happen, to just disappear into the ether of nothingness that makes up our universe. It’s that feeling of absolute loneliness…that feeling that no one fucking gives a shit, not my family, not my “friends” and not the professionals that are hired to listen, to “help”, that give a shit. I know, I’ve bitched about this before, but it makes me so fucking angry.

ALWAYSALONE.

I can’t just give up…can I? I wish I could just fall asleep, and let it all go. Just let the darkness take me

YESYESYESYES

You’ve been sitting here, listening to me bitch the entire time. Listening to me complain out loud. Panic, depression, darkness…I can’t stop thinking about this and about death and the truth is…I’m all fucked up. But you? I can’t forget you. I’ll never forget you. You’ve been there with me from the very beginning, through thick and thin, you’ve been my best friend forever. That’s why I’m here to tell you…that I’m choosing, right now.

SAYIT!!!SAYITSAYITSAYIT!!!DOITDOITDOIT!!!!!!!!

I choose that darkness within me. I choose to make you my first victim. The one I will never forget…the one that will always be with me. Forever.

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